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I was browsing through my hidden files in my lappie. Then i saw this folder 'CONVO BHIE' I remembered it was the message archives i saved. Every conversation we had,i saved it. Thats how madly blindly in love i was that time. Was it really called LOVE? I dun tink so. I was blinded with the things i see in him. The person i was looking at wasn't the person i think he was. It was all covered with a thick mask and made me believe that he was not that type of person.

I think i was lying to myself all the time. Thinking that he's different from the others. But HELL NO,he was like one of them and much worst! I was reading every conversation we had, and i was actually laughing at myself. I didnt realise how stupid i was to him. How much i begged him. Making up things with him, there he was laughing at me and playing hard just to feel the great feeling of a girl begging him. He would start every small fight and make it worse. He was always good at making it look as if it was all my fault. I'm not saying i was devastated the whole time,we had our good times too. But he was better off a friend rather than a lover.

Now,i felt i was living in a world of lies that time. Last saturday,it was my turn to laugh at him. I was there looking at him talking things out with his two girlfriends. And i could see how devastated the girls were. Both walked out on him. Yeah,i did saw myself in them. AND I REGRETTED BEING ONE OF THEM. Im sorry,u made me think of you this way.



im just glad im out of his system..

Monday, January 19, 2009 @ 11:53 PM